4 months since Ed died

Ed feels so far away from me sometimes.  And then, in a second, it feels like he was right here yesterday.

I miss him so much.  I ache for his voice, his laugh, kissing him when I got to the nursing home.  It's weird - I have a hard time remembering healthy Ed. 

I wish I'd taken 1000 more pictures and videos. To hear his voice. What him   My heart hurts.