Sunday, July 27, 2014
Sure, I have friends, was (am) a good auntie, volunteered as a Big Sister for many years and worked a whole whole bunch but I generally got to do what I wanted when I wanted.
Now, I have no time for myself. When I do, I tend to nap. I suppose this is what life is like for most people!! Kids, partners, pets... I hope I'm not whining. It's more trying to figure it out.
ALS is a disease of trying to conserve energy. I see this as my challenge as well - trying to figure out what the best plan is for my time.
We had the day off today. I ended up napping for two hours; I wanted to get a few things done around the house. Now, as I sit here typing this, I know I need to go downstairs to do a zillion things for Luther. I feel the weight of his waiting for me. It's not him I'm upset or mad at. As a matter of fact, I'm not upset at all. Rather, it's a feeling of heaviness. Not sadness. Just tuckered out.
I've learned i'm introverted.