I haven't written anything because I've been feeling like the rollercoaster ride is too much to talk about. One day, grateful, the next day ______________ fill in the blank with any negative adjective... sad, angry, tired.
This is my life. I have to accept it and figure it out. I've been saying this for the last two months but the feeling of ____________ fill in the blank doesn't go away.
Luther has to figure out his energy management. I guess I have to figure out mine, too.
I need help. I see a therapist and that's ok. It helps me see clear for about 45 minutes each Friday. I'm not sure what "help" actually means. Maybe that's a therapy topic? Trying to figure out what it is I actually need to alleviate these feelings. I really don't know.
At times, I'm not sure I can do this. I wonder if Luther think the same and yet, he has no choice. I do.
Anyways, we're off the the VA hospital today since that's where his health care is being transferred.
I have to go, Luther wants breakfast. He's sitting in the dark, waiting for me.